sadness upon me...

right now.. i have no idea why im feeling so sad.. thats the reason behind the title... i guess maybe its because i'm feeling lonely?? no bf? i have no life? thanks alot to studies and fencing.. even so.. i'm not regretting it.. it's the way i want it to be.. busy busy busy.. so then i wouldn't get caught up with guys.. owh.. its working perfectly.. truth is.. i just one that special someone... who understands me.. accepts me for who i am... and i hope that special someone comes soon...


owh.. something tragic happened today.. real bad... the good thing is i was lucky and it's not about me... just now in training we were doing footwork with the dummie.. and then suddenly pam's blade broke and reflected back to her and hit her eye.. omgsh it was freaking scary.. i was right next to her.. as in 2 inches away... i really thank god for protecting me.. da worst thing is pam's eye started to bleed real bad.. and its on d inside of her eyelid.. she couldn't open her eye even if she tried to.. soon, they had to bring her to the hospital to check.. well, i think i'll know what will happen to her soon.. haven't heard from her since she went to the hospital.. goodness.. i am freaking traumatize man... it was so freaking close to hitting me...

p.s. - don't fall for the wrong guy.