bAybeE cHii...

2009-11-06T21:52:00.001+08:00

just a lil something for u my dear. =)

You're the sky that I fell through, and
I remember the view whenever I'm holding you
The sun hung from a string
Looking down on the world as it warmed over everything

CHills run down my spine
As our fingers entwine
And your sides harmonize with mine
Unmistakably, I can still feel your heart beat fast when you dance with me

We got older and I should have known
[do you feel alive?]
That I'd feel colder when I walk alone
[oh but you'll survive]
So I may as well ditch my dismay
[bombs awayyy]
[bombs awayyy]

Circle me and the needle moves gracefully
Back and forth
If my heart was a compass, you'd be North
Risk it all cause I'll catch you if you fall
Wherever you go
If my heart was a house, you'd be home

It makes me smile because you said it best
I would clearly feel blessed if the sun rose up from the west
Flower bomb perfume
All my clothes smell like you cause your favorite shade is navy blue

I walk slowly when I'm on my own
[do you feel alive?]
Yeah but frankly I still feel alone
[oh, but you'll survive]
So I may as well ditch my dismay
[bombs awayyy]
[bombs awayyy]

Circle me and the needle moves gracefully
Back and forth
If my heart was a compass, you'd be North
Risk it all cause I'll catch you if you fall
Wherever you go
If my heart was a house, you'd be home

If my heart was a house, you'd be home

2009-10-16T02:26:00.002+08:00

" In a place full of hipocrits, you'll never know who are your true friends."

"trust your heart and hope for something good to happen"

2009-09-20T16:33:00.001+08:00

2009-09-20T15:40:00.000+08:00

cant sleep. thinking.

2009-08-28T04:29:00.002+08:00

here's a tought. bad things happen all the time. we juz have to see it from a different angle. whether we decide to accept it, do something bout it, or look deep down inside of ourselves and juz reflect on one's self. lets juz stop blaming one another and face the fact that it has been us all along. sometimes making people feel bad makes us feel good in a way. but the scar in us will only get deeper and not heal. but if we make others feel good about themselves we just might heal our own wounds. and if someone did something bad to u, dont fret but live as if there was no tomorrow, out of the all bad things, something good will happen. if a person was trying to please one's self by making false judgements on others, those others might actually come together and face those false judgements as ONE. so in a way, bad things bring people together to stay strong, a bunch of stick is always better than one. and if someone tries to break that bunch of stick that person will actually feel more hurt. this just proves that we should stick together as one so that anyone who breaks us will feel more pain. one of the best ways to live through life is just by taking in day by day, and to be thankful every morning that we can wake up in our own room on our own bed. always remember, if we had a bad day, somewhere out there someone is having an even worse day. a famous philosopher once said, "don't blame others when you were wrong at first". its a phase to be remembered before too much damage has been done and it may be too late to ever patch it back again.

p.s.- its another one of those moments when i just think of life as i relate it with myself. and to those people who takes others for granted. it's time to wake up from that slumber and do something about urself instead of blaming the world. Dont try to ask why it happens to. shit just happens. live with it.

awesome 17... =)

2009-07-07T23:44:00.002+08:00

7/7/09, who would've ever tought i would actually have a decent birthday celebration. last i remembered was..... anyways, i had a great time this year. pretty much speechless but uber happy.. haha..
thank you:

-5sigma for all ur wishes, especially these 5 important ppl.. cheryll lee, ashley khor wei yee, kellie chin, zhi lynn, and jessica yap.. =) thank you too joon hoe and wei jun..

and thank you darling jin wern for everything that you've done for me to make this THE best birthday ever. =)

-smks9 ppl!! u rock! haha.. special thanx to my darling prriti, adrian, praba, azwan, shamim, wong, jasz, najwa, and those that didnt come, nal n khuun..

-grace church ppl for all ur blessings and prayers.. =)

-to everyone who wished me in facebook n overflowed my profile.. haha.. it can never get better than this..

this year's birthday is the best so far. its unforgettable and i'll always cherish this special day for the rest of my life. it only happens once in my life and thank you everyone again for making this the best birthday ever. =)

pics are in fb....

=)

2009-06-13T02:18:00.000+08:00

for my darling...

2009-06-07T22:02:00.003+08:00

2009-05-22T19:29:00.000+08:00

random picz during hols 2008!

2009-01-01T09:58:00.011+08:00

new year 2009!!!

2009-01-01T07:10:00.003+08:00

~~The~~ A new year is here. Yeay, 2009!! New year, new hairstlye but it's a DISASTER! *again*

This year it's gonna full frontal ~~snogging~~ *ehem* studies. haha. a hundred and one percent. no excuses. beside's im grounded.*grr*

There goes all my fun but there's no way i wanna go out with my current hair do. LOL!.

and and, definately a big no no to getting a boyfriend in the near future.

Nope, not this year. Noway! IGCSE man!

After getting heart broken recently, that was the last straw. is there such phobia for being afraid of a relationship. LOL! Besides, i'd be suicidal if i ever do get in ~~an attac~~ a relationship this year.

There's so much more to life than that. *for now*

Strive harder and get excellent results and make mummy proud. *hee*

Then there's college to think about..... Psycho, physio,~~med~~, or even design...

What am i gonna do? Am i gonna do A'levels?

What kind of career i want in my life? Which colege is best? so many questions yet unanswered. *sigh*

choices.. choices...

not forgetting, i really have to lose all the excess fats i've gained in 2008. *grr*

Gym, here i come.. LOL!

Live Healthy. Eat Healthy. Stay Healthy.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, 2009!

Have a great year.

May god bless u.

2008-11-29T01:34:00.004+08:00

so yesterday it was pretty boring the whole day. my couzie joshua was over at my hous and is soo glued to heroes. lol. then, i went out with jane, keith and su ean to watch twilight again. well, it was fun. never shall i get bored of that movie. haha. and yes, it was eiley's b'day.. Happy Birthday!! after the movies we went to have dinner with eily in sushi king. n den we played hockey. no diff. our team lost again. lol.

*me and jane dear in the movies*

*us gurls being gurls camwhoring in the toilet... soo lifeless*

*jane and eiley*

*eiley, su ean, jane, me*

*hee*

*like mummy like daughter*

*red shirt and white pants with roxy slippers*

*before hockey*

*after hockey*

*still daughter like mummy* haha...

*same boardshorts* LOL.

*me, nora, jane*

*flower pants* =)

2008-11-15T15:29:00.003+08:00

everything happens for a reason. things change so i can learn to let go, things go wrong so that i can appreciate them when they're right. , and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together but really in the end what's meant to be will always find its way.

you were all i ever needed,

you were the one,

my one and only,

things change,

our differences grew us apart,

all the great times we had together,

becomes the past,

memories....

sukma camp 2008 (selangor)

2008-05-19T00:15:00.018+08:00

16/5 - 18/5...
kem sukma...
momentos...

TWISTER MADNESS.... :D

the ladies...

the men...

*juZ us GuRLzzz..*

at the ceremony....

shit happens...

2008-05-10T01:04:00.007+08:00

i just dont get it when people dont actually think of thier actions and the words they say to other people and what those actions and words could affect to the people that have been victimize... i dont know whats their problem seriously, if its stress, i bet 8 out of 10 ppl are stress too.. if its anger 5 out of 10 are angered too.. its just not fair to some people... well, me n my friends are going through this rough patch.. its like we've been insulted, let down, n even cursed by *her*.. and yeah it hurts.. reeaall bad... to those people out there who are doing this to their friends... "STOP BEING A F**KING SELF-CENTERED B*TCH WHO THINKS THEIR THE ONLY ONE WITH PROBLEMS AND START THINKING ABOUT THAT PERSONS FEELINGS!!! WAKE UP! WE ALL HAVE PROBLEMS IN LIFE JUST DEAL WITH IT, damn it!" to the my dearies out there who knows what i'm talking about.. just hang on n cheer up.. it'll get better... it just takes time....

p.s. - patience is a virtue...

sadness upon me...

2008-05-09T00:04:00.004+08:00

right now.. i have no idea why im feeling so sad.. thats the reason behind the title... i guess maybe its because i'm feeling lonely?? no bf? i have no life? thanks alot to studies and fencing.. even so.. i'm not regretting it.. it's the way i want it to be.. busy busy busy.. so then i wouldn't get caught up with guys.. owh.. its working perfectly.. truth is.. i just one that special someone... who understands me.. accepts me for who i am... and i hope that special someone comes soon...

owh.. something tragic happened today.. real bad... the good thing is i was lucky and it's not about me... just now in training we were doing footwork with the dummie.. and then suddenly pam's blade broke and reflected back to her and hit her eye.. omgsh it was freaking scary.. i was right next to her.. as in 2 inches away... i really thank god for protecting me.. da worst thing is pam's eye started to bleed real bad.. and its on d inside of her eyelid.. she couldn't open her eye even if she tried to.. soon, they had to bring her to the hospital to check.. well, i think i'll know what will happen to her soon.. haven't heard from her since she went to the hospital.. goodness.. i am freaking traumatize man... it was so freaking close to hitting me...

p.s. - don't fall for the wrong guy.

view on life

2007-10-31T02:31:00.000+08:00

here goes. life is all about ups and downs. it will be impossible to have a life with no excitement or sorrow. think about it. aren't those the things that give u life, past and the present, memories... we can never predict whats going to happen in the future, can we? LOL... life's about sailing along, having great times, enjoying life. and before you know it, it all flashes before your eyes.

everyone has personality. never ever think that your not good enough. just a lil' confidence and braveness will bring us a long way. never give up til u reach the top. if u lost one battle, doesn't mean u have lost the war, it just means you gotta work harder and win.

people are always competing to be the best. why? whats the point? there's a saying 'to be the best, we have to beat the rest'. but why not ' be the best and help the rest'. there are people out there who needs a helping hand. most people are selfish, which i really don't get. we should learn to be selfless and reach out a helping hand. pity those who have to live on the streets, especially nowadays parents just abandoned their children. i see kids walking around begging for money. if only there was something i can do more.

the funny thing is when people are rich, when they get everything they want. they are never happy emotionally. while people who lives an average life are the happiest people you see around. if we work together and put our differences away the world would be a peaceful place and everyone can have all the joy and happiness the world has to offer.